ugh it's so cold outside. The past few days have been the worst possible weather.

I've been watching "I Love New Millennium" on vh1 like a fiend. This is so sad. I feel like I can only justify this because I watch almost no TV while I'm at school. I don't really like it as much as "I Love the 80's" and learning about all the pop culture that I missed.

ugh, summer is lonely. I can't say I've been totally miserable...I'm still finding stuff to do. spending lots of time with my parents, going down to DC periodically, cleaning out my room and getting rid of lots of stuff, etc. It just sucks that all of my friends are so scattered, I guess. I've been spending a lot of time by myself. Which is good in a way, just...very quiet and lonely. I did just get a call today about understudying for this show that I auditioned for ages ago, which will be nice just to hang out with some people and have a project to work on/something to do.

ok I'm SO TIRED and can't really think particularly well. I had an EPIC trip to Frederick Coffee Company this evening, though, which I will update about tomorrow.

Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band: Billy Joel

Are you male or female: She's Always a Woman
Describe yourself: Uptown Girl
How do some people feel about you: Shameless
How do you feel about yourself: I Go to Extremes
Describe your last ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Don't Ask Me Why
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: The Stranger
Describe where you want to be: Summer, Highland Falls
Describe what you want to be: The Entertainer
Describe how you live: Movin' Out
Describe how you love: Just the Way You Are
Share a few words of wisdom: Only the Good Die Young

My sister and I went to see a movie the other night, and there was this trailer for a movie that takes place in New York...I forget what it's called but it's about this old white guy who learns African drumming. ANYWAY the opening scene of the trailer was this old guy at his job or something, but it was totally shot at none other than WAGNER COLLEGE!!! It seriously only popped up on the screen for about 10 seconds, but he was definitely walking across Wagner's quad and then sitting in the dining hall. So random. Oh, Wagner College.

I need to start updating this thing more...which I guess I will later when I have time. I need to start writing more of the creative writing that I like to write, instead of this... ethereal? (I could a number of different adjectives) stuff most people in the Writer's House tend to favor. I don't think most people in the workshops know exactly how to critique my pieces. oh well. In any case, expect more updates in the near future. Though I make no guarantees.

oh, and a sidenote, for those who read my last entry. I downloaded Panic at the Disco's latest album 'Pretty.Odd.' and it's so NOT CATCHY. I can't justify listening to them anymore. it's just normal rock/alternative/emo/ANTI-guilty pleasure material and not the crazy-catchy-techno-ridiculousness of 'A Fever You Can't Sweat Out.' There is one song on the album I really like:'Folkin' Around.' And, true to its title, the song invokes some good ol' fiddle music that rivals Transcendent Third's. But other than that track I'm totally ashamed of my Panic! fixation. The exclamation point being dropped has taken on a whole new metaphoric/symbolic meaning for me.

I need to start updating in here more often. I know that. Luckily an opportunity for hilarity opened itself up, because listen to this:

the artists formerly known as 'Panic! at the Disco' are now 'Panic at the Disco.' That's right, Panic at the Disco has officially dropped the exclamation point from their band name. (following in the footsteps, of course, as many acclaimed groups such as Matchbox 20/twenty).

Even more reason for me to revel in the stupidity of PATD. While, of course, I still listen to their album and most likely will buy their new one, too, because their stuff is just so goddamn upbeat and catchy.

The Shins are brilliant. Each one of their songs is like is own little imaginary fantasy world--at least, they make me picture one in my head. Like a surrealist painting or something, that kind of dream-like environment.

Ok, this sounds like I'm high. But seriously--I'm just trippin' on THE SHINS!!!

um...this entry was totally supposed to have another point. But now I can't remember for the life of me what it was.

I wore jeans last night for the first time in, like, months. It really wasn't so bad.

I also got a bangin' comfy sweater at a thrift store today for only $3.40. ah! I bought a CD today too, actually. Oh well, it's almost my birfday, I should get myself some presents. I probably need to get myself a job while I'm at it, though.

I think my friend Chase might really be a robot, with his temperament and judging from some of the stuff he says. I mean, just maybe...

OH AND I GOT A CALLBACK FOR A MAINSTAGE SHOW!!! That was yesterday afternoon--it was so friggin' long and boring, but oh well. I really would like to be in one of the department's main shows and I think I have a pretty good shot...I'm not sure when the cast list goes up.

My poetry workshops are making me a bit nervous. I had to submit two pieces to two different classes this week...so basically I had to force myself to write. I know people aren't allowed to be vicious with their feedback, but still. I really don't want them to judge me.

I also signed up for an inexpensive, 10-week dance class over at the Art Center in the Union, so that started last Wednesday. It's taught by this awesomely vivacious black woman named Mwoudi (at least that's how it sounds) who kept going on about "ooooo, y'all gonna be cussin' me tomorrow!" because of all the ab and lateral exercises she was making us do. Seriously, my side muscles are SO SORE. I didn't even know I had muscles on my sides. Anyway I guess my laterals will be kick-ass in a few weeks.

um...that's about it. I'm going home this evening after rehearsal so my family and I can have lunch tomorrow in honor of my birfday, and then it's right back to school tomorrow evening. and...that's about it.

oh yeah and the majority of my classes are boring as all hell, but whatevs. At least I'm getting my requirements out of the way. My movement class fucking rocks, though, I've almost mastered juggling. We also learned this exercise the other day called a 'lay down' where you literally lay down in a certain form or whatnot. I just like saying "I'm going to have a lay down," too.

you best be watchin' this music video. Kudos to Andrew Tross for showing it to me. and you MUST watch it to the VERY end for the full hilarity.

I pulled a big wad of earwax out of my ear today and it was the most disgusting/bizarre thing in the world. It was so weird looking. I mean, I assume it was earwax because it was kind of a tan color and it came out of my ear, but it wasn't what I'd expect earwax to look like. 

ok so you can see how exciting my life has been, that was the friggin' highlight of my day. The past few days, even.

Also exciting is that they had an open casting call today for National Treasure 2 in the Union. Apparently they're shooting part of the movie on campus. So I might get to be an extra in a movie! totally cool.

I've been getting into crossword puzzles recently, mostly as something to do while I'm bored in class. I managed to finish the Washington Post crossword this morning with only a bit of help from my dad (since he gave me a ride to D.C.) It was a proud moment. I suppose it is the easy day, though. ah well I'll start finishing crosswords soon enough. Hopefully by the time I'm 80 I'll work up to the Sunday New York Times crossword.

St. Stephen is the patron saint of Bricklayers. haha. Add that to the list of awesome saints, along with St. Cuthbert (patron saint of DUCKS!!!!)

wouldn't it be great to name your kid Cuthbert? I told that to Belle and she was like "what do you think of the name Sinclair?" What if you combined the two? Cuthbert Sinclair DeArmon. What an awesome fucking name for my future son.

I've been so inspired/in the mood to write today. which means--LJ POST! yay.

I got a digital camera for Christmas from my dad (he got them for my mom, Belle, McCamie and me, all identical) which was a total surprise. We haven't been big on the presents for years now so this is definitely awesome. I hadn't seriously been wanting a digital camera but now that I have one...imagine the possibilities!!!! tagging hundreds of photos on facebook, lots of fun userpics that I take of myself, random LJ picture posts of strange/funny things that I see...orgasmic.

I brought myself a lot of CDs as my Christmas present to myself. John Mayer's 'Continuum' and Amy Grant's old Christmas album (for nostalgic reasons).

hm what else. I really want to grow my hair long again, I got the urge to for some reason. My hair's finally long enough to put into pigtails/buns again which is fun.

well I'm inspired to write but this is a really boring and short post. I apologize.

oh yeah and for Carola and Kelsey and the rest of you Rufus Wainwright fans, download his song "Foolish Love." It's the most beautiful and perfect song. ever. period.

( entry from 5:51 am on 12-15-06, which was like the most awesome entry ever but for some reason when I posted it it totally messed up and didn't show up on anyone's friend page. read it now, bitches!!!! )

omg so weirdo news update of the week...guess who my brother is now hanging out with? no, seriously, guess.

Nathaniel Barr.

ew.

My mother told me this the other day, and I tried to convey to her how urgent this matter was--I said "mom, he's a weirdo, don't let John hang out with him" but she did not sense my urgency. She didn't understand why Nathaniel was so weird no matter how much I pleaded with her. ugh. ok, new mission everyone: whenever you come over to my house, we must converse loudly about how weird Nathaniel is. Um, if nothing else, why the fuck is a 20/21 year old hanging out with my 14 year old brother? ugh what the hell. this is so bizarre.

But anyway that's my bizarre story for the week...nothing much else to report. been in tech hell for the past two weeks, only one more week until I am free from this goddamn show.

for some reason last night I really, really started to miss New York. and some things about Wagner (well it's easy enough to get over 'missing Wagner' spells, I tell ya) but seriously I miss New York.

ummm...and I'm ready for fucking Thanksgiving Break already. I'm stressed the fuck out.

oh and one of the other guys who is working on the show is so perfect. nice and chill and funny and cute and I would so seriously tap that...except that he's conservative. shoo. I do not think that would work at all...
(and you know what they say. never have sex with a conservative. any accidental pregnancies will have to come to term...)

ugh it is so fucking cold outside. and the heat in our apartment hasn't been turned on yet. I turned on the oven and am trying to stand by that to warm up. anyways I just thought I'd bitch. IT'S SO FUCKING COLD AND WINDY.

I keep going between being so happy and being anxious and worried. Like, just this evening I have been. for whatever reason...it was a beautiful fall evening, though. cloudy, but beautifully fall-like in the veeery slight chill in the air. Anyways life is so exciting and busy and wonderful right now, I don't know why I keep going between feeling so overwhelmingly excited about it but also anxious beyond all belief. I keep worrying about my parents dying, too. Not, like, for any particular reason but just thinking about how distressing it would be if one or both of them were to die anytime soon.

Ok so boy section (as with all of my LJ entries recently...) Joe and I had a talk the other night and we're both on exactly the same page in terms of thinking about our dating. Pretty much, we both like the way our lives the way they are when we're single and like seeing one another but not having to call/talk to the other one incessantly when we're not seeing each other (which is still only like 2 times a week.) omg THANK THE LORD. Nobody in this situation is going to turn into a whiny, clingy bitch and hopefully this will stay a low-stress little fling. (My mother, by the way, is already suggesting that I invite Joe to our family's Thanksgiving extravaganza. My family is fucking nuts.)

( Amanda's and my weekend of hilarity )

oooooo my friend Chase and I also made an exciting late-night excursion into Adams-Morgan last night and went to this cool bar-type place that was called "The Diner." fun times. my life is fabulous right now. I must say.

shoo, Wayne Brady is coming to UMD. I'm fucking excited.

oh man, large state schools are the best! it's straight boy central over here at UMD!!!

I am feeling good because I just came from my first jaunt with the terp runners...went running with a group of all guys, which was kind of a mistake...I kept up just fine until we hit some uphills and then it was hell, luckily there was one guy who ran slower with me.

In any case, my point is...if you want to meet straight boys, join a cross-country team or something. I am riding high on TESTOSTERONE.

This was such a pointless update. but I've had my first busy day here at MD, so that's awesome in my book. signed up to audition for some stuff, ran with a guy named Scott (who is from Bel Aire, MD...he said when he was little he used to think the Fresh Prince lived in his neighborhood. cool guy.), had science class overload(a lab and lecture both)...things are good. and I might be bussin' up to see Amanda this weekend, to, which is exciting. it's been too long since I've subjected myself to the smelly chinatown bus...

oh and for extra credit for my science class we can keep a tarantula as a pet for the semester. how awesome is that?

so now I am relaxing and sitting at Starbucks. drinking something that tastes like a frostee from Wendy's. yummy.